well now i'm an undergraduate student. Everything have change now. I have my goal now. Weather or not i like my course i have/will finish it no matter what. Speaking of change theres one thing that i try to change for so long time ago, but i never could. I want to be a little bit more ...hurmm...how to say..easily mix with other people. I dont know the cause but I can feel that i'm building ice around me that make people scare to interact with me. To be honest rather than blame people dont interact with me... i'm the one who dont know how to interact with people. Do I have communication problem? I really dont know.

most of people first impression on me is a quite girl. Yes i am a quite girl with strangers, when people get to know me im not that quite. Anyway i think my problem is that i'm unable to express myself. I like it when people know nothing about me...because person who know you best, is the person who tend to hurt you the most.

hehe nice eh?

look at the title..and that's what happen to me?

i feel so empty............................

i just put up new banner, eventhou i've made it years ago. well i dont think it will last very long but we'll see. I was thinking about making new one by next week. i'm not good at comp but i shall try. As if i got anything to do anyway.

Oh ya. Today i finally touch my lecture notes for first time ever during my 1 month of holidays. Well i did some revisions and exercises eventhou my friends said it not nescessary. 

Your true color is Black!

What's Your True Color?
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Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

it kinda true

i'm currently searching for work or courses to fill in my holidays. i already spend my last 3 weeks doing nothing. But as the time goes on i realised that my exam result will be out in the next 2 weeks. OMG!!

most of the courses offered requires 3 months to be completed. But i only got 2 months of holidays left. About the work thingy..i cant fine anything suitable for me, because most of it far away from my house. The cost of getting to the work place may consume 80% of my salary including money for lunch. It is so not worth it.

well since it is holiday, so i got nothing to do except for watching tv, reading junks and a little bit of house work. my life now truly is different. from a hectis life of a student to a relax life. I can get use to this .

but i dont just lie around the house thou. i do some of the house work, i even try to get a job and find any short course i can involve myself in. i dont want to spoil myself during the holiday.(haha)

WAH~~ so tired..so many books in my room..
everytime i clean my room theres always bag's of books being trown away..but..more are left too..
I dont know where to kept all this unthrown books and paper.. I need a bigger room (haha)
maybe i should log all my books and notes..

sometime, not that i dont want to throw something away..but..aa..these old things make me remember the old days.. (am i sound like an old lady??)..but seriously i do feel that way everytime i clean my room.. so nostalgic..
and that is the main reason why my room fill with this old, unused things..

now i'm in the middle of holidays. i got nothing to do..hmmm..

maybe i should start by cleaning my room . i'm considering working to fill in my free time. i should gain some working experience now so that it be'l' easier for me to when i grew up.